Quick Check in

Looks like I'm going to have to write blogs on the weekends again and schedule them throughout the week. This back to working momma has no free time during the week! I am amazed at those mom's that do it all and still have time to take care of themselves too!

I went back to work Monday. Worked a half day. Missed the booger like crazy all day long. Quite a few tears from Sunday night through Monday morning. Yesterday I worked a full day. We figured out that Jellybean is not going to take a bottle anytime soon. Hates them and wants nothing to do with them. Luckily the daycare is literally two minutes away so instead of pumping I drive over there every two hours to nurse him. My work is aok with it. It actually takes me less time to run over and nurse him then it does to pump. Pumping is a pain in the neck anyhow with the setup, process and then clean up. I still have an oversupply so I take at least half an hour to pump alone. Jellybean and I both benefit from getting to see each other throughout the day and he has been a very happy baby at daycare so far. If this arrangement keeps working with no separation anxiety I'll definitely keep it up.

So my schedule looks a little like this -

5am - Wake up for work, shower, get dressed, pack lunch, get Jellybean's stuff ready, quick snack for JB, then a diaper change and in the car seat
6am - Leave the house
6:30 - 7:20am - Arrive at daycare, Feed the Jellybean, give him his Zantac, and play with him for a minute
7:30am - Start work
9:30/10am - Feeding
12pm - Lunch break - Feed the Jellybean and play with him
2pm - Feed the Jellybean
4:30pm - Off work, Feed the Jellybean and finally head home around 5pm
5:30pm - Home! Start making dinner while Jellybean plays
6pm - Bathtime for Jellybean, then storytime while he eats and hopefully falls asleep. He also gets his Zantac again and his vitamins.

7pm - Eat dinner, hopefully relax. (I puled out the foot spa last night! Pure heaven - with salts too.)
8:30pm - Jellybean wakes up to eat and goes back to sleep
9pm - Bedtime for his momma since we're going to be up a few times during the night too!

I haven't figured out where I am going to do any chores in there yet or run any errands. All in due time. Joey's mom had been visiting the past few days so she has been washing dishes after dinner and helping out. I'm going to miss that when she goes home. My house is desperate for a real down and dirty deep cleaning. I may ask my mom to come do it and pay her for it that's how needed it is! I have a feeling my weekends are going to be quite busy until we settle into a routine.

So as you see - I haven't had a chance to read any blogs or write any. Bear with me and I promise I'll be back up to speed eventually. (Then I'll probably end up preggo again with Jujube (who will be a girl)  and my blog will fall by the wayside again.) Yes - even with a three month old I am planning more kids. I could live with about 10 or so - that's how much I love being a Mom. I think it was what I was destined to be!


I'm linking this up with -

even though its totally lame and pathetic as a PYHO. Then again, this is about as creative as I can manage at the moment!

PYHO - A Year Ago

***Excuse any typos - typing this one handed again. Jellybean is snuggling!

A year ago today was the worst day of my life. My mom called me at 3:20pm to say that my dad was being rushed to the hospital because he had a stroke. I was at work and I remember running out into the common area and saying I was leaving because my dad had a stroke. People followed me to my car offering to drive me and I just got in and booked it to the hospital an hour away. I was the one who had to call my sister to tell her.

Once at the hospital things just got worse and quickly. He had another mini stroke while in the ER. Then once he was transferred to the Neuro floor there were 2 more mini strokes and a massive stroke. You do not know fear until you are standing in your father's hospital room as they call a code stroke and people start rushing in from everywhere. After that he was transferred to the ICU where he spent almost a week. We were all with my daddy around the clock. We got to know everyone who worked there and they all went the extra mile because they saw how loved he was.

That experience was a huge reality check for me. It made me realize that the most important man in the world to me (Sorry Hubby!) was in fact mortal and wouldn't be here forever. Not a thought I liked at all. I realized that no matter what life really is too short and I spent the next several months a basket case of anxiety and worry over my dad. I drove everyone crazy with my constant worry and neurotic state. I couldn't help it. I just love him so much that I went into a tizzy anytime I had to think of something happening to my Daddy.

Now a year later I know we are blessed. Since then I beat infertility and my sweet Jellybean is here. My daddy beat a completely occluded carotid artery and manged to have his "roto-rooter" done on the blocked side while the other side has been reducing blockage on his own. He is now relatively healthy and has no plans of going anywhere anytime soon. I am lucky enough to be able to see this happen regularly -

Life might not be perfect but it sure could be a lot worse!


I'm pouring my heart out with Shell, won't you too?

PINT - Tuppence from you?

A very special PYHO post tomorrow too. I will make sure it goes up even if it means missing some of that precious sleep!

Conversations with Jellybean

Would you believe the little stinker has been sleeping most of the day today? After his partying for five and a half hours yesterday!

Anyhow...on to

Conversations with Jellybean

Jellybean: Hey Cadillac!


Cadillac: Yes, Jellybean?

 
Jellybean: I'm having some troubles I was hoping you could help me out with.

Cadillac: Well what sort of troubles would that be JB?

Jellybean: I just can't seem to nap and I see you doing it all the time so I was thinking maybe you could show me some tips.

Cadillac: Sure thing buddy boy, let's start with your car seat.  See you just crawl in it like so, get comfy and whammo! You are sleeping!

Jellybean: Huh I think I can do that...

   


 Cadillac: That's it kiddo. Now let's try the same thing in bed. Here I'll do it with you!
 

Jellybean: Wow that isn't hard at all! Look Cadillac, I've got it! All by myself too!
 

Cadillac: Oh Jellybean! Who am I going to nap with when you go to daycare?

Spent...

I have a really cute Conversation with Jellybean post I was going to write but not tonight.

Why you ask?

I'm spent.

Again you ask why?

This tweet should explain it.

littlebitlife Diana

Jellybean just stayed up for 5.5 hours at 11 wks old. He screamed for the last 2 from being overtired and ate 85424 times in those 5 hours.

 

I'm now going to bed.

Preparing for the Inevitable

I have started to prepare for the inevitable.

Despite all my attempts to avoid it and convice myself it wasn't going to happen.

That I could beat it, fight it or find a way around it.

But alas no rich uncles or winning lottery tickets have come my way so it looks like I will be returning to work after all.

Damn...that sucks.

On Wednesday I had the "pleasure" of resuming my annual exam with my OB/Gyn. Wonderful man, he really is but I could have held off on that again for awhile. The visit though gave me a chance to talk to him and air some of the things I have going on in my life behind the scenes. I wish I could share them here with all of you but I can't just yet. Trust me - that is a post that would be quite cathartic to get out and as soon as I can I will be writing it out. Talking to my doctor did help me to make some decisions and to decide how I needed to approach my return to work in a way that will be manageable for me. I can't just jump back into it like I haven't been gone due to what I have going on in the background. So my next step is to talk with my boss and see what we can work out. I already know that I am in fact NOT going to California which is a huge relief in itself for me. My tentative plan is to return to work April 4th. I will work half days in the office that week and half days from home so Jellybean can adjust to daycare. (Okay...so I can adjust too!)  After that I am hoping to work a modified schedule for a few months where I will leave an hour or so early and make up for it on the evenings and weekends working from home. I am hopeful that they will be agreeable to that arrangement. My doctor is in my corner willing to back me up if I need it. I hate being so vague with all of you but someday you will get the whole story!

Jellybean and I went by his daycare after the doctor appointment so that he could start to get to know his teacher. She spent some time rocking him to sleep and a large amount of time talking to me. I already knew it was the right place for us but after talking with her some more I am now certain. I'm planning on bringing him by a few more times before the big day and leaving him for an hour or so to ease us into it. I still hate the idea but it is inevitable. I will be nursing him before I go off to work, at lunch and then again when I pick him up. So, we're getting ready to resume life. I would say as normal but this is a brand new undertaking for us. Things are anything but normal but we are going to ride this wave and see where it takes us.

PINT - Party on Party People