I have started to prepare for the inevitable.
Despite all my attempts to avoid it and convice myself it wasn't going to happen.
That I could beat it, fight it or find a way around it.
But alas no rich uncles or winning lottery tickets have come my way so it looks like I will be returning to work after all.
On Wednesday I had the "pleasure" of resuming my annual exam with my OB/Gyn. Wonderful man, he really is but I could have held off on that again for awhile. The visit though gave me a chance to talk to him and air some of the things I have going on in my life behind the scenes. I wish I could share them here with all of you but I can't just yet. Trust me - that is a post that would be quite cathartic to get out and as soon as I can I will be writing it out. Talking to my doctor did help me to make some decisions and to decide how I needed to approach my return to work in a way that will be manageable for me. I can't just jump back into it like I haven't been gone due to what I have going on in the background. So my next step is to talk with my boss and see what we can work out. I already know that I am in fact NOT going to California which is a huge relief in itself for me. My tentative plan is to return to work April 4th. I will work half days in the office that week and half days from home so Jellybean can adjust to daycare. (Okay...so I can adjust too!) After that I am hoping to work a modified schedule for a few months where I will leave an hour or so early and make up for it on the evenings and weekends working from home. I am hopeful that they will be agreeable to that arrangement. My doctor is in my corner willing to back me up if I need it. I hate being so vague with all of you but someday you will get the whole story!
Jellybean and I went by his daycare after the doctor appointment so that he could start to get to know his teacher. She spent some time rocking him to sleep and a large amount of time talking to me. I already knew it was the right place for us but after talking with her some more I am now certain. I'm planning on bringing him by a few more times before the big day and leaving him for an hour or so to ease us into it. I still hate the idea but it is inevitable. I will be nursing him before I go off to work, at lunch and then again when I pick him up. So, we're getting ready to resume life. I would say as normal but this is a brand new undertaking for us. Things are anything but normal but we are going to ride this wave and see where it takes us.